Embrace the day

Some days just creep up on me. Living in my human experience I tend to recognize anniversaries. They are only a noticing, if you will, of the orbit of my life around the ever shining sun. At times I am amused that we put significance or attention on time's passages. Where I have my attention is where I am making my life happen...for good or ill.

I set my alarm for pre-dawn today. I want to be in the juice and the light of the whole day. Wholeness is what I have my attention on today. The wholeness of life, love and joy. I heard the first bird song of the morning, saw the first flock of bushtits zoom by the bedroom window and enjoyed a deep conversation with my beloved husband. All of this before the sun shone high above the San Luis Rey Valley. It's there behind the clouds!

How to celebrate the anniversary of the transcendence of my beloved Sam? Is it a celebration?Silly human mind. Sometimes it thinks in such small ways. What is it that his energy is up to know? Is there a time when I will let it be and bask in the wonder of it all? Will I stop crying? The questions are endless because Life is! Ha. Eternality is a glorious expression.

The last year has been one miracle building up for the next. I love where my life is going and the Good that is teasing itself forward. I am leaping, knowing that the net will be there...and I do not need it.

I am in gratitude to all the people who have showed such kindness and compassion during these times. I am relieved that Sam's transition was swift and non-violent. I send my love to Mr. and Mrs. Martin, Trayvon's parents. They must find more strength than I had to muster for the media spinning through the grief of letting their son move forward. Love.

Sam's birthday was Sunday. We planted some beautiful trees at a friend's home. They will welcome him and all of his guests with a grand and glorious view for many years to come. A befitting remembrance for a fine all to young man. A life fully lived and loved. The beauty is his legacy.

Morning ramblings from a momma of three amazing children.

Blessed Be Your Days. And Nights!

Emerging from the dust storm

I disappeared in February. Whatever... you all have lives and so do I. Living them is the point people. I can commit and recommit anytime!

So recommitted am I.

Particularly because I survived yesterday's folly.

I had a lovely inspection trip to Yuma and was completely seduced by the warmth of the sun. I drove merrily westward seeking the solace of my beloved's arms.

The challenge was getting through the dust storm on my chosen highway. I drove towards this huge dust cloud as if it were a normal occurrence. I didn't even have a thought about it.

The wind was blowing at least 25 mph and the sand was so thick that at times I could not see for more than 5 feet in front of the car. Terrifying. Talk about praying without ceasing. That section of road is about 20 miles of desert without any vegetation to hold the sand in place. So...it was flying towards my car and smacking against the windows.

I am crazy adventurous stupid alive elated relieved delighted to be home.

Blessings for your adventures today.

Lovin' the rain

Today's rain was fantastic. I delighted in watching it as I prepared a luncheon for 50 guests that is to be served on Tuesday. The clouds danced across the San Luis Rey Valley moving with a beauty that was captivating. The light and movement is a dance that changes moment to moment.

I have given myself many experiences to enjoy over the last 7 days and in the next few days. Most are work related. My agreement with myself is to be in the moment. A view of the activities could turn me into a crazy stressed momma (with a little bit of fun in some places along the way). I prefer, though, to stay on task and be a celebrant of the very moment in which I sit or stand. I do not let myself indulge in scary tactics of freaking out about my workload, or the challenge of making lunch for 50 wonderful people. Or completing the 7 reports for the inspections that I did last week. Or....or.....or....Blah blah blah.

I have accomplished the goal rather well. Thank you very much! I am also in the process of accomplishing it to. More celebrating later in the week!

I watched Downton Abbey with Lily last night...The first episode about World War One. Why didn't we figure it out at the beginning of the last century that war is not healthy for anyone? Can you tell me? War is OVER!

I dined at a favourite restaurant in O'side on Saturday. The restaurant was hoppin' and I looked around to see some folks that I know waiting for tables, as were we. I had a quick chat with my first midwife, who is a treasure in my life. She delivered Joe into this world with me. Another quick chat with a new friend, who serves beyond measure. The company at my table, of course more treasures. What a rich evening.

Life is delicious.

It's a new year for billions of Chinese and other cultures around the world.

Dragons rock.

Road goddess

Greetings from sunny Yuma!!

The last time I was here it was 113 degrees. It's quite a different picture in January. The skies are clear and very chilly at night! The wind was howling yesterday...today it's alot more calm.

And so am I!

I have two more inspections and then I'm jetting home...well zooming home.

I have enjoyed this trip. A new year gives a good look at operating systems...the inner and outer human ones. Organization of the activities that I accomplish on the road is the key to feeling un-stressed.

Stress is not my companion. She is the instigator of change. So...she has accomplished her task this time around.

Thanks be......

Gotta zoom to the first farm of the day.

Blessed be this glorious day and all that I touch and all that touches me.

What a week

Big Breath....

So glad it is the Sabbath....Well, I can make anytime a sabbath and today suits me well. Thank you very much!!

I had a rough week. Enough said about that. Some love was all I needed and I piled it on in great beg doses.

Part of the love was to get my clean on....get up from my chair and away from my computer and tidy up. That is a great way for me to fall in love with my life again!

I begin a new week today. Jumping in to a "busy many days ahead" mode. So I am organizing my work and my fun and finding a good balance with both. I'll be headed to Imperial Valley and Yuma for a couple of nights.

While I travel my sweet Joe will be moving his boxes to his new place in Normal Heights/North Park. He is stoked and I am excited for what is unfolding for him. He'll ride his bike to school and walk around his neighborhood to his heart's delight. Yeay for him.

I'll move into my new office in a week or so. Just enough time to get Joe's gear settled and to get my head calmed about just how gigantic of a thing this is. Stay busy momma and maybe it will be easier.

Pay attention to the greater Good and it will be easy.

Life has been good at presenting its passages and reminding me that I am capable and strong and wise.

Especially that I am strong. Weakness makes me someone other than I want to be.

There...

Did it. Wrote and didn't detail it to give it any more juice...any more energy. The new week has begun.

Thanks be to the revolving planet. Thanks to the bright sun that hides behind the clouds today. We are all moving.....evolving and revolving. Where is your centre???

Big Breath.

Full Moon Morning

What a spectacular morning. The moon was setting as our alarms began to wake us. It was hanging just above the hills along the coast. I was completely smitten with the view. Chilly as it was I just had to get outside and wash myself with the dawning day and setting full moon. Big deep breaths as I stood in awe and wonder!

Thank you Beloved Creator for this very wonderful day. Fresh and clean and ready!

We had a great time in the garden yesterday. The grapefruit needed some major attention and Lily and I were happily pruning away all the dead wood. Such a great metaphor for a new year and a new month! The tree is fertilized and irrigated and lighter. The fruit will be so delicious.

I got busy on the apricot too. It looks much better and perhaps the loving attention and clean up will coax some fruit for us to enjoy! It's a miracle that the tree is even alive!

Scott and Lily worked on the chicken roost and nesting box. We prefer to re-purpose different things that have been accumulating around the place. Scott found plenty of pieces to get going. Maybe it will get done in the next few days.

Stepping forward in joy and gleeeeeee!!

Blessed Beeeeee!

Visions of gluttony

This week was a great start to the new month.

I jumped right in to my work life. We have guests working in the garden. Scott is rolling in plenty of projects. Lily has photo shoots. Joe has a new place and is getting his life in SD started...And it's only Friday!

We are major achievers. Maybe over-achievers. Hmmm...whatever. I'm in It to Win it!!!

LIFE ROCKS!!

I attended a vision board class last night and put together the coolest treasure map that I have done in my life so far. It's full of inspiration for this year's experiences and intentions. I am delighted to be in this place of renewal and rebirth. We westerners do it collectively based on the Gregorian Calendar. Some call their intentions resolutions. Ugh! I am setting myself up for delightful results. Bring it!

I give myself many renewals during the year, based on all of the areas of interest that I embrace.

Next is the year of the dragon....

ROAR!!!!!!!

Coyote has enjoyed feasting in the chicken yard this week. Older hens are slower to get away. Sad but true. Must get protection to a better level now. More tasks!

The greens are weeded and fertilized and the water barrels are empty now. We are ready for rain to bless the soil. I may get the next section planted before it rains. That would be ideal.

Joe's moving this month. I get to create my office/den/study/meditation space. It's gonna rock. I have selected the paint and will be looking for better desk-type setups.

I inspected a packing facility near the Otay Mesa border crossing on the US/Mexico border. I was stunned by the number of trucks traveling along the road with produce and goods from Mexico. Hundreds and hundreds of 18-wheelers spewing diesel so that folks can enjoy cukes and tomatoes and zucchini in winter.

Got you thinking haven't I? How many miles is on your dinner plate. Good thing we don't have to eat the diesel fuel too.

2012 week one was great. I'm ready for week two. Especially because there is a weekend in between!

Bon annee tout le monde

Hello world...it's me, Laura.

What, you didn't recognize me? Why? Oh! I look different, I feel refreshed. Renewed.

READY TO ROCK!!!

I celebrated the year's end with a wedding in The San Pasqual Valley. The happy couple exchanged their devotions to each other with the majestic rocky hills behind them. I saw my first broomstick ceremony...profound indeed. Look it up if you don't know, because you should know what that is...

Attending a wedding with treasured friends is the greatest way I could say so long to a crazy yucky amazing sorrowful tremendous year. Attending a wedding is a community gathering that affirms that love is the Truth between us. Love is what I am. It is what I claim in my life.

I delight and revel in the connections that I make. I treasure and cherish the moments...remember them and embody the love that they express.

As a new year approaches, I take a gander around my home and see all of the things that I do not want to take into the New Year. My office was the most urgent matter. I'm inspired by Lily switching rooms and the move that Joe will be making soon.

In preparation for having my own office, with a door to close, I got my office space re-organized. I bought a new chair, rearranged my desk and most likely will recycle a huge amount of papers over the next month!! My employer is moving to be more paper-free and that is just fine with me!

We are expecting the return of the happy travelers tomorrow. Their adventures are going to include a longer stay with us. Their arrival moves us back into farm mode. I couldn't be happier! We have another flock of chickens headed our way in about 5 weeks and we have many preparations to make for the flock that is growing very quickly right under our noses! The greenhouse will get an east wall and we will get transplants started in a couple of weeks for the spring planting!!

We are happy to have the support of these youngsters!!! HAHAHAHAHA

I have cleared out some clutter, mentally and physically. The space is renewed to create cleaner work patterns and clearer strategies. That is the best way I ca think of to head into the first week of 2012.